Men on Repeat

Is this just the same guy?

Over and over again on repeat?

Meet, greet, let him devour me

I back away

He pushes

I pull

Somewhere along the way things get a little toxic

I get ghosted, communication is lost, inevitable heartbreak

Ensues and I accept the loss

Cause I’m too scared for something real

And he’s too scared to actually feel

So we dance around each other beating around the bush

I put my heart on the line

not afraid to catch feelings

He’s so fun and funny

He has me reeling

Can’t we just go back to the beginning

I’m complex with walls built up high

I stare at the wall or at the sky

And you wonder why

You can’t quiet secure my heart

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